Photography, Molars, and Easter.

I'm fairly certain that if anyone out there reads this blog, you probably get as bored reading a recap of my week as I do writing it. However, the past few days are worth recapping. I'll try to make it less play-by-play and more... worthwhile? **If you just can't stand reading any more, at least look at the picture at the end. :)

I am getting the days of the week confused, but I guess being sick/tired/out-of-it kind of tends to throw one off. Thursday (I think), Keaton and I went out with my friend Kelley, her son Nolan, and Kelley's Mom to take pictures of Nolan for Easter/Father's Day, mainly as a surprise for Kelley's husband Tim. The weather was pretty cooperative, as was Mr. K, which was a nice surprise because I was a bit nervous about how distracted I might be with him there during photo taking. Thanks to Kelley's wonderful mother, he was entertained the entire time, and enjoyed a nice stroll around the Riverwalk in downtown Naperville. The photo session went well, and although I didn't get as many smiles out of Nolan as I would have liked, I definitely enjoyed running after him and capturing some fun moments. Man that kid is quick! I was 100% exhausted afterward, as was Kelley. No matter how tired I was, I was reminded yet again about how much I enjoy taking pictures. I really don't think I have much of a method, besides patience and flexibility. And a quick camera... which helps immensely when you are taking pictures of a toddler.

I was able to play around with Photoshop again since Thursday, and it reminds me that I have barely scraped the surface of that software and have a whole hell of a lot to learn before I can even claim to be a 'pro'. Not that I have- others have mistakenly labeled me that, and it is far from a reality. Right now, at least. You have to start somewhere. I look at pictures I have taken five and even ten years ago that, at the time, seemed flawless to me. Now that I have taken even a few photography classes I can look at those pictures and see room for a lot of improvement. I guess that's how every 'artist' grows, and it makes me look at the pictures I've taken more recently and wonder what I will think of them in ten years, and what more 'seasoned' artists think of them now. I guess that's why I wear my art on my sleeve, if you will, and frequently admit that I have a lot of room for improvement. I think as long as I strive for the improvement part, things can only get better. I don't ever want to come off as arrogant about my work because there is always someone out there that is better than you... in the end, all I really care about is the feeling I get when I present pictures I have taken for someone and they are as genuinely excited about them as I am. It's like Christmas every time.

While my intention for this entry was not to strictly write about photography, I feel this desire growing in me more and more to pursue it and get more serious about it in the very near future. I keep feeling like I have lost track of what I am doing with my life. I am a wife and a mother, and couldn't be happier about either of those things. I feel very blessed with Casey and Keaton, and would never change my role for anything in the world. That said, who am I beyond a wife and mother? I can't really give you a definition right now. I do know that I tend to lose focus frequently and easily, so sometimes the small, random moments of clarity are my best motivation. What does that mean for me exactly? More school. Maybe a degree. But beyond that, I only have tiny glimpses and 'dreams', if you will, about what I will do with it. All I can do is DO it. I've heard it more than once lately... actions speak louder than words.

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On another note entirely, the last week has been pretty rough for Mr. Keaton. Last week he started the coughing/sneezing bit, and while it seemed to get better over the course of the week, it never totally went away. Some days he'd have a runny nose, others he would be totally clogged up. To complicate the matter, I am in the final stage of weaning him, which has not been an enjoyable process for either of us. Throw on top of that the fact that he got not one, but TWO molars over the past week and a half, and you have one uncomfortable, unhappy little kid. He has been squealing like a teapot the entire time. I felt pretty lucky that with the cold symptoms he didn't have a fever... until 2:30 this morning. He woke up crying and when I went in to check on him, he was burning up- 101.5 degree temp. I gave him ibuprofen, nursed him (which concluded our one feeding a day), and put him back to bed. He woke up again at 5:30, but this time his fever was completely gone. I am still stumped about what happened, exactly, but I am glad it was quick. He wasn't in the greatest of moods most of today (and yesterday, for that matter) but he hasn't spiked a fever again, and his cough sounds better as of this evening. The poor kid needs a break!!

Lastly, Keaton got to meet the Easter bunny yesterday, and for a little boy who wasn't having the greatest of days, he was a total rock star. He walked right up to the Easter bunny and didn't even think about crying. He may not have smiled, either, but he let us know exactly what was on his mind- those darn teeth. See for yourself... that tiny little tongue points right to the culprit. (Sidenote... doesn't he look so grown up in this picture? I mean, even next to an 8-foot tall bunny?)

And now, the weekend is over. This week is going to be good, darn it. It has to be an improvement from the last one... right? :) We are headed to Galveston on Thursday. I look forward to spending some quality vacation time with my boys, and maybe even getting some sun. Until then, I'm just going to work on getting Keaton healthy... and maybe taking some more pictures. :)

-Ash

Rough start to the week.

Week so far:

1) Keaton and I have been sick since Monday. He's been sneezing and coughing up a storm (luckily no fever, though!) and I have been congested/dizzy/exhausted during that time. The weather outside has been crappy so I guess we're not missing much, but it's making the week go rather slooooow....

2) We are still trying to find the next four-legged Hetrick. Casey's made a few phone calls and while we can't actually get a dog until after our trip to Galveston next week, it's exciting to think that we'll probably have a new family member by the end of next month. :)

I am trying to think of something else to write, but unfortunately I can't think of anything. That's how exciting this week has been. If we are lucky, Keaton and I will both feel better tomorrow and I will be able to take pictures for my friend Kelley of her son Nolan for Easter. That is good motivation to feel better quick!

I'll write more later, hopefully it will be a bit more exciting. :-)

-Ash

The Next Hetrick

No, don't get all excited... I am NOT pregnant. I'm talking about the next 4-legged Hetrick. I wonder if anyone's heart rate (Mom, Dad) went up reading that title? Not very nice of me... ;)

At any rate, we recently found out that our friend from South Carolina who lives in Illinois now happened to find a 4 month old American Bulldog, and he wondered if we were interested in taking her because his apartment complex had some issues with it. We (read: Casey) did extensive research on the breed, and found that while they are very loyal and are generally good with kids, they tend to have a bit of dog aggression. We were looking into other options for our friend because we didn't want to just turn him down, but it turns out that it worked out for the best- in the week he and his girlfriend have spent with the pup, they have gotten attached to her, and she to them. So instead of meeting up with them tomorrow to see how she did with Keaton, etc., we are going to meet up with them and just visit and let Keaton play with her for fun. All this talk about dogs has gotten the ball rolling for Casey and I, and I think we are almost ready to get another one.

During this process, I have realized a few things. 1) My feelings about Charley Brown have been just below the surface, and it didn't take much for them to appear. 2) I highly doubt we will ever find another dog as special, loving, and perfect as Charley was to us. I miss him SO, SO much, and I think about him every single day. Lately, though, it's been a little tougher for me. Going on a walk for the first time when the weather warmed up was hard because it reminded me of our family walks with Mr. Brown. Walking into PetsMart was especially tough because just about everything reminds me of him. Today we went into Two Bostons, a local pet boutique, where we used to take him. We didn't know they were having pictures with the Easter Bunny at the shop, so the place was packed with people, kids, and dogs. It was a bit chaotic, but so much fun to watch Keaton get excited about all the 'doggies' everywhere. Then a woman came in with a beautiful Boxer named Max, and wouldn't you know, the tears start flowing. I had to step aside and contain myself. That is the first Boxer I have been up close and personal with since we said goodbye to Chuck. Even writing about it now is hard for me... but I realize I need to deal with these feelings and sort of embrace them so it will not be as difficult next time. (Sigh.) I hate being so Emo sometimes. But it is what it is.

Casey and I are thinking about looking at the local Boxer rescue site this evening. It would be great to give one a good home, and maybe look into getting one that is already potty trained, etc. so it will not be as difficult (hopefully) having a toddler and a young dog around. I also don't think potty training a kid and a dog is something that sounds very enjoyable to me. Just sayin'... I have enough on my plate! ;-)

I guess that's all for now. I will update more on our doggie endeavors as they progress. In the meantime, I am enjoying a nice weekend with my boys... one of whom has already passed out for the night. (Second night in a row that Keaton's been asleep by 5:30!) I think we might go to sleep early tonight as well... the weather is crummy and Case and I both didn't sleep so great last night, but I'm glad he's back from his L.A. trip, even if he did get home about an hour later than expected due to a flight delay. R&R time starts... NOW.

-Ash

Sleeeeeeep.

For the past few days, I haven't really been in a writing mood. Nothing interesting to say, I guess. Keaton continues to amaze me every day... nothing new there. (That's such a Mom thing, isn't it? "Yeah, my kid is awesome. No big deal." LOL... today he put one of his shape toys into the correct hole (there has to be a more intelligent way to say that...) and continued to be a goof ball, as he has recently. He really likes to be goofy with me, and now he loves when I chase him! I am paranoid to do so because I'm afraid he'll face-plant again, but it is pretty cute when he sees me coming toward him and squeals because he wants to be chased. Today he would 'run' (walking quickly at a forward angle with his arms out... if that makes any sense) and fall into his beanbag chair. Such a nut. I'm sure I'm forgetting something... I'll add it later if I remember.

He and I have been really tired the past few days, too. I think the weather has something to do with it, but I also think he's going through a growth spurt. (I wish I was, too!) He fell asleep yesterday at 1:45 p.m., and ended up sleeping until almost 4:30!! I wouldn't have let him sleep that long but I fell asleep, too. Then he went to bed at 6 last night, woke up at 4:30 to eat, and then slept until 7 this morning. He took another long nap from 10-12:15 pm, and went to bed at 5 tonight. That is a LOT of sleeping for Mr. K! I have a feeling he'll wake up pretty early in the morning, so I'm going to attempt to get to bed early tonight so I can get up with him and not be a zombie. Casey is on a two day work trip to L.A., and should get home sometime early Saturday morning- probably before 2 a.m.. I have a feeling he'll be pretty exhausted so I need to be ready for it!

Blah blah blah. Not much else is going on around here. We took my friend Michelle to lunch yesterday for her birthday. Really, not much more to report. See why I didn't blog the past few days? Yep. :)

-Ash

Nap time for Keaton = Blog time for Mommy

Oh, yesterday... one for the books. I should have called it Medical Monday. Mom's surgery was in the morning, and ended up going great, thankfully. She is already on the mend and sounds very upbeat, which is nice to hear! (I doubt it's the pain meds talking, although I'm sure that helps a little!) :-D I've chatted with her 3 times since the surgery and she sounds better each time. Woo hoo!

In other news, Keaton did not have the greatest afternoon yesterday. He woke up from his (two hour!) nap and we came out to the living room to play. Suddenly he took off toward the kitchen, and going a slightly faster speed than he usually does, ended up going too fast and face-planted on the hardwood floor in the dining room. Instant bloody lip. The hardest part was trying to calm him down and see if he had just split his lip open or if he'd knocked any teeth loose or out. Luckily it was just a cut, but it took me forever to try to hold him still, clean off the blood, and figure out what the damage was. He cried for almost 10 straight minutes. I ended up calling Casey, and the pediatrician, just to tell them what happened and to see if the Ped thought we should come in or not. He didn't pass out or get sick at all, thank goodness... just had this horribly puffy, bright red and purple lip for the rest of the day. He wouldn't let me put ice on it, so I ended up giving him so ice cream to take the swelling down. We went outside awhile later and one of the neighbors gave him a banana popsicle, which took the swelling down even more. He loved it, of course. His lip looks much better today. What a scare, though! I think I did pretty well, all things considered, and managed to keep calm(ish) during the whole ordeal. It made me think about something worse happening, and how I would get him into the car and to the ER if I needed to. Hopefully I never do, of course, but I went through a procedure in my head so I can have a game plan if it ever does happen. And if he takes after my husband (Love you, Babe!!), I'm sure we'll be at the ER at least a few times during toddlerhood.

Today we went to Keaton's music class at the library, which is a lot of fun. Keaton and his friend Nolan are the second youngest kids in the class, and while they can play a few instruments and occasionally clap and dance, they are pretty much in their own little worlds the majority of the time. Both boys became more interested in pushing around a little blue chair near the end of class, so Kelley (Nolan's mom) and I ended up spending our time chasing the little guys around instead of singing. My kid became slightly obsessed with another little boy (young enough to be in a carseat almost the whole time) and after each song he would walk across the room to babble at him. It was pretty cute, but it ended up wearing me out trying to wrangle him and take him back to our spot in the circle after EVERY SINGLE SONG! I guess I can just be glad that he's social. :)

We have our last swimming class tomorrow... I'm a little sad, but I know we'll have plenty of opportunity to swim this summer, and we may enroll him in another class where they teach water safety instead of staying at the Y. I will miss our instructor, though... and the fabulous family pool. :-/

I guess that's all for now... hopefully no more injuries to report in the near future!

-Ash

I Love You, Caffeinated Beverage.

This one was strongly encouraged by Dr. Casey Hetrick... we always talked about what a fun picture it would be but I never got the camera out to actually take it... until Sunday. Thanks babe!!

I am a rarely motivated person, but it is amazing what a Medium Caramel Frappe from McDonald's will do.

After grabbing that glorious drink and a few chicken nuggets to share with Keaton (the nuggets, not the coffee), he and I met up with some friends in Naperville this morning for an event called "The Wonderful World of Wheels" put on by the Naperville Park District. It was a parking lot full of different types of vehicles- police cars, fire trucks, trolleys, moving vans, etc., all open for kids to sit in and walk through to their hearts desire. Oh, and they could also honk the horns or turn on the sirens. Needless to say, it gave our eardrums a bit of a wake-up call. Some kids could tolerate the noise, but just about every other kid that was there had their hands over their ears. And I don't blame them... yikes. In general, I think Keaton had a good time, but I didn't really feel like standing in a long line to see everything, so we didn't stay long. I also slacked on taking pictures because that is difficult now that he wants to walk everywhere... life has certainly changed now that he's mobile.

Speaking of life-changing events, my Mom had her gallbladder taken out this morning. The surgery went well, and quick- it took about 20 minutes. She is already home recovering now. The poor lady has been through so much the last few years, but I think now she is on the mend... both her cataract surgeries went well (she can now see 20/20 in both eyes!) and if she takes it easy, she should recover nicely from this surgery, too. I hope her body decides to give her a break now and that she doesn't have to have any additional surgeries... EVER. She is so tired of going to the hospital, seeing all kinds of doctors, taking a ridiculous number of medications... she really does need a break from all this. I really don't know how she keeps all her doctors appointments and medicines straight. That is one tough lady, though, and I know she will get through it all... she just has to try not to drive herself crazy having to stay in bed for awhile. Even Superwoman had to rest sometimes, you know?

Other than that, I have managed to throw dinner in the crock pot (sweet and sour pork), clean up the kitchen and dining room, and start some laundry. Thanks again, Caramel Frappe- don't know what I would do without you! (Probably a whole lot of nothing.)

Love,

Ash

Just one of those days...

I'm changing it up today. Here goes nothin'...

What A Day

I woke up this morning and rolled out of bed,
I couldn't get rid of the fuzz in my head.
For the first time in ages I got plenty of rest
But wanted to sleep more, which is what I do best.

I tried and I tried to keep my eyes open
And Keaton was playing, I guess he was hopin'
That I would play with him, but alas, I could not.
My eyelids were heavy... but I gave it a shot.

I sat on the couch and watched Keaton play...
I thought, 'Just keep moving... it's better that way.'
But just as I started to wiggle my feet
I dozed off again. This sleep's got me beat!

I thought maybe Keaton would take a nap, too
As he rubbed his red eyes, I shouted "Woo hoo!"
So I laid him down, and I laid down as well.
But from his crib, I heard Keaton yell.

So into his room I went with a rush.
"It's time for sleep, little man... please hush!"
But he refused, and I realized at last...
My time for a nap had officially past.

I got us both ready for our swimming class
And chugged some hot coffee, hoped the feeling would pass.
Then I looked at the clock, oh my gosh, we are late!
That is what happens when I procrastinate!

We hopped in the car and were on our way
To the state-of-the-art Plainfield YMCA.
Into the building we ran in a hurry
But the line to check in was so long... now I worry!

Will we have enough time to get ready for class?
Will I hurry too much, slip and fall on my ass?
No, that can't happen. I just have to be quick.
I have to be careful, though the clock goes 'tick, tick'...

Then the line started moving and we flew down the hall
Past the daycare and people playing basketball.
I opened the locker room door and I ran.
I got Keaton ready as fast as I can!

We opened the door and went out to the pool
But got stopped short... it was going to be cool!
And not as in 'neat'... the pool's pump was dead.
We must swim in the old, cold, deep pool instead.

We stepped in and gasped, "Oh my GOSH, it is COLD'!"
And we tried our best to do as we were told.
We sang all our songs and jumped up and down
But the water was deeper- I thought I might drown.

Luckily, though, we got through the class.
We got out of the pool and then my little ass
Went as fast as it could to get towels and get warm.
To the locker room we went, as the norm.

Then a lady with three kids we see every week
Stood in front of her locker, but did not speak.
And Keaton walked over and started to play
With the lock on her locker, so I pulled him away.

But the lady looked angry, I didn't know why
She threw open her locker and let out a loud sigh.
And the locker door was only inches away
From hitting Keaton in the face while at play.

I looked at her, didn't know what to say.
Maybe she too was having a bad day?

She continued to throw things around and I froze.
She is lucky I didn't punch her in the nose.

I thought of the kids and what they would say
So I bit my tongue... it was better that way.
But I wondered... it bugged me... what crawled up her butt?
I asked my friend, "Wow, was she rude, or what?"

We stood there in silence, then I picked up my dude.
"Don't be like that lady, bud... man, was she rude!"
We left the building, but I just couldn't shake
The rudeness of people and the impression they make.

I drove us both home, the chick still in my head.
How should I have handled that? What could I have said?
It's a tough situation when it comes to your child.
I have a tough time not getting too riled.

I'm sure if I'd napped I'd know just what to say
But my brain is all mushy... it has been all day.

I hope there's no next time, so I don't have to guess.
Then my head will be clearer and not such a mess.

To the rude little lady-hope your day gets better
Hope you get to get out and enjoy the nice weather.
Hope everything today goes off without a hitch...
Just remember, dear woman; Karma's a bitch!

I think I can...

More Keaton milestones:

• Finally drank from the silicone sippy cup by himself... after... 6 months? I hope that lasts!
• Had his first music class at the library and LOVED it! He walked all over the conference room during class and did not want to sit down at all... hopefully the novelty of walking will wear off at some point and he will sit still! I will not hold my breath. He also danced and marched during some of the songs, and played instruments... this class is going to be fun!! Yay for free entertainment for toddlers!

Not much is going on around here other than all the new Keaton accomplishments. Casey is busy with work, continuing to build his new computer, and hanging out with us whenever he can. While we were gone, he deep cleaned the entire house. I can't tell you how nice it was to come back home to that. It made me feel guilty about letting it get so bad, but then again, Casey is very good and thorough at cleaning, so I appreciate that he took the time to do it. It's hard to keep the house clean and picked up with a toddler... but I could do much more to keep it that way. Maybe, with some luck, I'll have more opportunity to do things now that Keaton is more independent.

I guess that's about all for now. I always think of things to write about when I'm away from the computer, and now that I'm here, I can't remember what they were. Oh well... I'll probably remember when I sign off... :)

Until next time,

Ash

There's No Place Like Home

Where do I start? It's April now. My kid can walk. I just spent a week in Kansas. KU lost to VCU in the Elite Eight. That's the short recap... now for some details!

My father-in-law called on the 23rd of March and said he could come up and get Keaton and I to come home for a bit. My mom was having cataract surgery and I wanted to be around for it, and I also was a little homesick, so the timing couldn't have been better. Mr. K was feeling better at that point (although he still had a 'smoker's cough')... so we packed and were headed to T-town. I didn't really let many people know I was going, so we could have a more relaxing week.

We arrived late on Thursday night, in a thunderstorm. It was one of the more nerve-wracking landings I have been a part of, but pretty amazing at the same time- there was lightning all around us as we descended into Topeka. Luckily there wasn't too much turbulence, but it's still a little scary in a 6-seater plane. We made it to the Hetricks and were too wound up to sleep. I think Keaton and I both stayed awake until around 10... he didn't even nap on the plane! He must have known he was going to see his aunts and grandparents, and was too excited. I was, too. :)

Friday night, my mom, Mitch, and his parents all came out to the Hetricks to watch the KU game. It was a good one, and they made it to the Elite Eight. During the game, Keaton took a few more steps as he cruised the furniture. He was pretty proud of himself and proved to be an excellent source of entertainment. Between dancing, laughing at the dogs, and cruising non-stop, he was a very busy little guy. He enjoyed all the attention from the family, of course. Saturday we went out to Mitch's parents house to watch the KU game. This one was not as good... they played terribly and the officiating was horrendous! Needless to say, it was a depressing end to the season. To add insult to injury, when the game was over, it started snowing. I thought I went south for warmer weather, and instead I got snow! I was pretty bummed at that point. I was thankful that Keaton was around to cheer me up, though... he was a little ball of energy and joy, and helped us all get through a tough loss.

Mom's eye surgery was on Tuesday morning, so I spent the first part of the week at the Hetricks so I could go to my parents the second half to help my parents if they needed it. (Although I think they helped me more than I helped them by chasing after Keaton and keeping him busy.) Mom's surgery went well, thankfully. On Wednesday morning, Mom had to go back to the doctor for a recheck, so Keaton and I drove her to the appointment. For some reason the doctor was running behind, so we spent the better part of an hour trying to entertain Keaton... he was pretty restless and I did my best to preoccupy him so he wouldn't get fussy and bored. I think it worked for the most part. He showed off for people in the waiting room. Man, does this kid love attention!! He did really well when Mom was in getting checked. Her eye was already at 20/40 one day after surgery, and she is still doing well, with little pain and only a few irritations. She is having her gallbladder removed on the 11th of April, so she is gearing up for that now. I worry about her because she tends to push herself too much (like picking up Keaton and bending over, etc., when she was told not to) and this next surgery will be a lot more risky, especially if she doesn't relax like they told her to. My mother is not a person who sits still long (maybe that's where Keaton gets it??) so I know she is having a tough time thinking about having to stay in bed for an extended period of time. I think as long as she tries to stay positive, everything will go better than she thinks it will. But those are just my two cents.

Wednesday, while Mom and Dad were hanging out with Keaton upstairs and I ran down to the basement to throw in a load of laundry, Keaton took 9 steps. In a row. Unassisted. And I missed it. Of all the times to do it, he did it the 3 minutes of the day I wasn't with him. Joke's on me, I guess. But he walked, and from that point on, he took more and more steps. He took his first independent step on Monday, March 17th, and started walking on March 30th. I need to jot this down in the baby book.

We got to see a decent amount of people during the trip back: I got to see Lindsey and Sara twice, Jeremy once, both sets of Great Grandparents, my friend Sherry (who is expecting a baby boy this summer!), and spend quality time with my parents and Casey's before we headed back home this past Saturday night. I am so thankful that we got to go back- it was a nice, relaxing time. We also got to go to the zoo with Keaton last Friday, and enjoy some wonderful weather... it was in the upper 60s on Friday, and upper 70s Saturday. I actually got a tiny bit of sun!! Then we came back to the chilly Chicago weather... but it was so nice to be home with Casey. Keaton greeted all his toys with a squeak (which was hilarious- it was like he hadn't seen them in a year!) and enjoyed time with Daddy.

I am sure I'm forgetting tons of details, especially about Keaton's milestones... so I'll try to remember a few I may have missed. He is in LOVE with my parents dog, Yuki, and said "doggie" quite a few times in reference to her. He loved playing with her and cracked up anytime she played with her rabbit toy or licked his fingers after a meal. We probably need to look into getting a dog sometime before next winter... he is completely enthralled with them. Again I will mention that Charley Brown would have LOVED this stage... and I know Keaton would have loved having him around, too. But I guess I shouldn't dwell on that, and look forward to the next dog that will become a part of our family, whenever that may be. I don't know that I'm ready for a toddler and a puppy. I guess we'll see!

Other Keaton moments: Saying "Hi Doggie!" to a barking dog at Great Grandparents (Hetrick), saying "fish" while feeding fish, learning how to take snacks out of the small plastic snack holder, mimicking noises like Grandpa Harding and repeating them if asked later, coloring with crayons, going down a water slide (not by himself!) at the YMCA pool, opening and shutting any door he could get his hands on, cutting yet another tooth (bottom one, finally!),... oh my gosh, I know I'm forgetting plenty. I will try to remember and recap later. Today, he has taken 2 naps already this morning, and has been eating a lot today- another growth spurt? I think so. I think he also got more hair while we were in Kansas! Who knows what else. The kid is blowing my mind.

Anyway, that is way more than enough for one day. Now I am going to work on organizing all the photos/videos I took while at home and updating Flickr/YouTube so I don't lose any of the moments I caught while we were away. Hopefully I'll be able to update more often and not have a crazy, jumbled, long entry anytime soon... I'm sure it's not all that fun to read and pretty unorganized. On that note, more later!

Love,

Ash